end of it all.

wow we're at the last step in this road. it's like the whole j2 batch is standing at this crossroad. Some of us exchanging numbers, some of us telling the others where we'd be headed after this, some of us embracing our last hugs and other merely hugging. It's so scary that the roads we are walking off on seem to stretch on into nothing. We simply can't see what's at the other end. But one thing's for sure, the roads head on in every possible different direction, and will diverge for miles before they even meet (if they ever do).

it's so flabbergasting how easy this seperation was. and it's for this precise reason that I can't seem to grasp this gnawing regret or whatever it is in me. Like i've been telling everyone the final point of our RJC life has been inundated by the numerous things happening in this period -- Prom, trips, outings, applications, and most notably As. It's like we were forced to ignore the seperation, led to believe that we weren't really doing so, up until it was too late and all we can do is take photos and pretend that these photos represent our friendships.

But i think my biggest pain is that we never realised what it took for friendships/relationships to take root. I thank God for the ones that I have established and I cherish (not gonna name names so I won't leave out anyone), but the rest... Lost chances, to say the least. Do I regret not developing the little links I have the people I have met in RJC? Yes, definitely. I should have taken every chance to try and make a great friend, but I didn't.

Having said all that, I am thankful for all the people in my life in this time, and I wanna hug all of you for making my RJ life so frickin' interesting. I won't say goodbye, cuz I really want to see all of you again. And call me ignorant, but I'll hang on to that thread of a hope that we will all meet up again. All of us.

posted by wei @ 12:43 PM