day of decadence.

"It's a strange sensation to experience hope for the first time in my life, and then find myself weighing the benefits of electrocution against lethal injection. But that's where I am."

Dexter is a great great show, artful, intelligent, with the usual dose of great storyline. I love it i'm hooked.

Well, to take a modicum (learnt from Nick!) of speech from the man himself, it's a strange sensation to have drifted into an unfamiliar part of the ocean, hoping to be able to start anew here, and then realise that the past is always there to haunt you. But that's where I am.

Perhaps I can't say that the past is gone. Been talking about it with Mel Ho, with Shu, been thinking about it a lot as well. But what's flashing in my head now is something that I didn't even experience. I don't understand why it's sticking to my head like that. A imaginative scene in my head. That is killing me.

人世间情为何物? Like I was telling Weiting last night, this line is quite genius. For one, it expresses the futility of love, how it's but a concept, an ideal, an obsession with something abstract, that has driven people to die and to kill. How stupid it is for us humans to have invented something like this. In no other aspect does something so profoundly intangible have such a massive impact in our lives. On the other hand, this line also shows how futile it is to define that concept of love. What is love? I mean, of course there is the age old question, but when you "fall in love", how are you supposed to know it?

I thought I knew it. I still think so. I don't want it to be any other way but what can I say of it but jealousy? Or as shuli puts it, idolatry?

i still love.

posted by wei @ 1:27 PM