mug mug mug.

haha my blog post titles are getting less and less relevant to the actual blog posts.

OK, stretch out your palm. Fingers stretched out. Go on, just do it.

I just had a chicken drumstick the size of that, plus a chicken wing and a cup of melamine. I am so full right now I think I will die from shock of the nightmares I will have later.

Speaking about dreams, I must tell you about the dream I had this morning that caused me to wake late. It was really odd, and even odder that I can't even remember the most important detail: the person who I was married to (at age 18, I think). I'm pretty sure it's someone I know in this life, but I can't remember how we knew each other, how we decided to marry each other, and stuff like that. All I remember is one scene where I'm hugging the baby and there's someone else on my lap (a guy, I think -.-") and we are all shouting at her and the baby's crying cuz she's holding a knife running against my knee -- though this may be my maid whipping me with some cloth to wake me up, i'm prone to that sort of reality-illusion link -- and next we are in some part of town, shopping, and I'm holding the baby, and being the hen-pecked husband that listens faithfully to the wife's instructions and waits for her quietly to finish her shopping. Rarr it was bad the overarching feeling throughout this brief period of holy matrimony was regret. Bachelorhood may after all be a good idea. I think I need to read Sigmund Freud soon.

I admit that after discovering blogs like Nick's and Ngiam's, I'm reminded of my old blogger self, albeit slightly, just slightly more on the suicidal side. Haha it's quite a startling reminder of where I came from when I was back in secondary school.... I reflected a lot more, thought about life a lot more, made many life-changing decisions that I probably didn't have the maturity at the time to make... And I admit that I wanted to start that again. But I'm not sure if I like this me. Sometimes I feel like this me is shallow and ignorant to sentiments; people used to talk to me about problems, now I feel like I don't have the capacity to absorb all these heavy thoughts and words in my skinny frame. And sometimes I feel like I like this me, because I'm so much happier as life gets simpler in my mind: less caring about what others think of me, getting step-by-step closer to God and discovering Him in my every day life, learning to love my parents and overlook their short-comings, etc. It's like a maturity that tells me that immaturity is the way to go, and with this immaturity I've learnt to let go of all the binds that tied me down to my emotion. When was the last time I cried? Perhaps I should try to post some of those thoughtful entries just to get back in touch with the tender side of me. Must look for inspiration like hole-punching, or mugging, or typing, or filing- wait damn that's taken.

Having said that I am still quite bewildered by Ngiam's uncanny ability to inject so much emotion into the economy of words that he bothers to use. His blog posts get under the skin.

New speakers whoots, and quite cheap too 15 dollars (philips beat creative in that aspect). What I don't understand is how something about 15 times the size of a handphone earpiece can cost half the price of the latter. And sometimes I'm exasperated by the people in our workforce:

Me: [taking out my spoiled earpiece to show the heavily-foundationed salesgirl smsing] Um do you have this?
Foundation Girl: Uh yes. [stares]
Me: Uh well could I take a look at it?

I think she must have heard my snort of wtf. And she told me that if I used Visa I had to pay 3% more. I think she's just scamming my ass and I gave her the "uh-ok-I'll-let-you-have-your-way-since-i-don't-really-know-how-to-give-a-box-to-your-face
-and-get-away-with-it" look as she swiped my card.

College applications are confounding to say the least. Weiyuan said I don't want to do mugging more than these forms but trust me, I do. Tomorrow I'm going to ask Mr. Lee about college apps to be done next year haha wish me luck. Cuz if he says cannot then US is pretty much of the list for me. I'm so lost with all these UNI apps.

Mugging update: not bad. Created a NEW plan, sad to say though that within the first day of it's creation I've already fallen behind by a Math Paper 1. But researching Education for redaction was fun... Very interesting. Wanted to post emo entry about me and my dad (emo meaning emotionally charged, not sad) and a style icon of the week, but i better sleep I've got a Chem paper 3 tomorrow -.-". Maybe next time.

posted by wei @ 1:21 AM