respite from emo.
is respite even a word? is it used correctly?today... was a little less emo. maybe because i kept running around and had little time to stop and think about Crush. maybe it was because of the slack time i had with YH to go buy his mortal's present. maybe it's because i have nathan hartono and elliott yamin's new albums.
but thinking back about today... everytime i see you you make me feel sick. you make me feel like i'll never be good enough. close yet not close. it's like bringing me on a high then dropping me over and over again. i see you hanging out normally with others... why not me? am i not part of the cool crowd that's why? i liked the way you were last night.
huizhen thanks for the concern. don't show me too much attention cuz i scared i am acting or even sub-conciously emo-ing for others to see only. i need to figure this out on my own first. but thanks alot.
and meiyi too... thanks for the letter. i've always wanted to write you a letter too... but i'm so busy i never get around to writing it. i'll try to write one to you now. i think the sticker is very nice. and... i'm not someone you wanna worry/emo about la.
Crush, you read his blog, not mine.
Ok today i feel a little better. I think the Hawk Nelson song is the song i play to remind me of Crush, so i'll just keep listening to it. I emo when i have the time. Right now, since I have the time and energy, and tomorrow being lecture day, and friday's photoshoot being cancelled (woohoo!), i will try to chiong alot of things. my current commitments are:
1. Lit Week
2. College Play (Assistant Director for Rough for Theatre II -- go Rahul & Steffi!)
3. Jazz Concert
4. Council
My end of year plans include:
1. Andrea, Serene and Hongxiu Trip
2. ISLE trip
3. ACRES/WILD party
4. Orientation '08 stuff
Hmm i will bia. I think i'm doing fine with my workload.
Oh and sorry jon i'll get you the coffee tomorrow.
Bia tonight! Save tomorrow for slacking. Should i pon yet another lesson of french and go for council meeting? Cuz i really wanna hang out with them.
See ya. Less emo tonight. Maybe more later if Crush talks to me.
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