still.
i'm still feeling lonely. as I went through the day I felt very tired and weary of life. and one comment from joel placed everything in the right perspective:Me: "What if i went home and killed myself?"
Joel: "Then too bad la! ... Can you don't be so emo?"
Well, I admit, I'm emo, but this is what will happen when I kill myself? I can make the people who made me kill myself feel guilty, but at the same time avoid making the people who might grieve for me grieve because they won't. Suicide is so viable suddenly. How many people will notice the signs, if I did?
I had intended to go for a run, or a walk, or something, just so I can destress and let out some pent-up emotion (I still want to do it), but stayed in school to help Bayley instead. Poor BP has to deal with so much, but now with Cheng and Ryan around I think they'd do fine.
I still want to kill myself.
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