apologies to Buckley DF 2006.

i had to do this, before saying anything else.

to everyone of you who contributed to make Buckley Dramafeste work out: Charles, Yao, Wei Jie, Si Hao, Jin Kai, Darren, Joel, Jared, Zhan Ming, Ms. Cho, Mrs. Ong, Ms. Kuo.... i hereby send you my sorry. maybe today when i realised we won really little (in fact nothing at all, if you consider 'we'), and maybe i created some sort of fake happy facade to hide the sorrow that i had... but i'm sorry. really, anyway you look at it, with my cast and crew doing 100% of what they were told, it leaves only what they were told to be blamed. and that is my fault.

i feared not of not winning a thing. not getting best script (although i did wish to get at least nominated), or whatever. in fact, winning best actor made things worse, because my cast and crew worked so hard for me, and taking a prize for myself is not a thing you wanted to do in my position. they truly believed in what they were doing, and... they were amazing. i know every house say that about themselves, but how many of them get to come to state like ours? everyone has put in their efforts, but if it doesn't pay off? my people wanted very badly to win, and i did not deliver the results they wanted.

it's impossible to have so much responsibility put on you, and not deliver. really. to my dear sec 3s, charles and yao: whatever I did, i did it wrong, so do learn more from next year's RP production before delving into dramafeste, don't take after me. i'm sorry. really.

i know you guys will say it's ok, but I read from your faces that you were not one bit happy that we won nothing. i can't make it up, but I'll give you whatever (assuming you still want it) help that you need next year. sorry.

posted by wei @ 2:13 AM