lots of walking.
Well today did alot for me.
Hmm let's see.
Campaigner's video which went along without a hitch. Got to move posters tomorrow. Please vote Clinically Proven, we love each and every one of you who gives us your support. Oh Jun Wei, Ho Xing Xian Melissa, Liang Shuli and Foo Ye Wei. Thank you.
Then lunch with the cool gang which was fun. Me and shuli up to tricks again.
Then met HX and we walked everywhere. For damn long. From Orchard to Kino to Cine to Heerens to Far East. Met up with Andrea and Serene, ate BnJ then left.
Lol BnJ.
But I missed the stop home for the second time this week. Why? This may sound cliche but.... I was sleeping to dream about you.
I'm dreaming of sleeping next to you I'm feeling like a lost little boy in a brand new town. I'm counting my sheep and each one that passes is another dream to ashes and they all fall down. And as I lay me down tonight, I close my eyes, what a beautiful sight. Sleeping to dream about you and I'm so tired. Of havin' to live without you But I don't mind. Sleeping to dream about you and I'm so tired. Oh, yes I... I found myself in the riches (Your eyes, your lips, your hair.) And you were everywhere. I woke up in the ditches. I hit the light and I thought you might be here But you were nowhere. (You were nowhere) Well, you were nowhere at home. As I lay me back to sleep, This love I pray that I can Keep. Sleeping to dream about you and I'm so tired. Of having to live without you But I don't mind. Sleeping to dream about you and I'm so tired. (Just a little lullaby to keep myself from crying myself to sleep at night.) Sleeping to dream about you and I'm so tired. Of having to live without you But I don't mind. Sleeping to dream about you and I'm so tired.
I always take this time to dream about how it would be like to be with you, Crush. What is your nick supposed to mean? Do you know who I am? Damn it. I really like you. I wanna scream in your face but I'm too damn afraid.
I'll miss you.
addition.
haha you have to hear this.
today during GP alan was as usual trying to impress the GP teacher with his supreme intelligence. So he decided to point out and refute the teacher (who said that there was no woman who started a war). Here goes the conversation:
Alan: "You're wrong ma'am, Thatcher started a war."
Mrs. Davies: "Which one?"
Alan: "Margaret."
Mrs. Davies: "No which war?"
Lol i thought this only appeared in sitcoms. haha this is what they refer to as self-jack.
emo, tickled and touched all at the same time.
Wow. Before anything, I want to put this poem up:
The coffee’s never strong enough.
For a friend.
You departed on a journey,
(Eva Air, boarding time 1100, gates close at 1130)
Along with 34 other people,
A journey of discovery (of self, others, and so much more).
1. Don’t expect anything, and you’ll get more than you ever hoped for.
Flashing colours, flamboyant clothes,
Exaggerated actions, singing high notes,
(You were a Player – why change what’s au natural?)
All led to you, being called gay.
“Wow, perfect face.” X said,
After merely a week, she was the one, he most wanted dead.
2. It’s no use being pretty on the outside, when you’re ugly inside.
Merciless teasing, shameful pimping,
Such unfriendly circumstances
Pushed us together, led to stolen chats, deep into the night.
There had to be more to this, you came to find yourself,
You wanted to be a flawless person,
Just like all the others.
3. Everyone has their secrets and faults.
Sleep as a necessity,
A temporary avenue of escape, I am a courageous person,
(isn’t that what we’ve been taught to be since young?)
I face my problems face on.
So you started on the coffee,
From having never drank before, to a daily minimum of three.
4. There is a reason God made us to dream.
Caffeine, when too much is taken, loses its effect.
Let’s move on to alcohol, after all, “I’m a big boy now.”
Too much, too much (only slightly lucid)
What could be wrong, I had people around me,
They were drinking too! (And ain’t that cool.)
Too much, too much (Fuck off, you bitch)
Some found you funny, other’s found you mad.
The ones that got pissed are those that really cared.
5. You gained new friends, but you lost some too.
Changing, morphing, evolving, remodeling.
A journey of discovery, did you lose yourself?
Changing, developing, modifying, advancing.
A journey of discovery, you found me, and I found you.
(who ever said you were the only one searching, on this trip.)
Changing, Searching, Learning, Growing.
You tried to be perfect,
You got that much closer,
You should have asked me from the start,
(I felt you always were.)
-- A.L.
I think some of you can guess who wrote this. But well, I have never had a poem written about me. Thank you Andrea, it's people like you who remind me I'm still loved in this place. Arrgh I really like the poem. I don't know how to say it, it's as though while it shamed me to be reminded of all that happened back in Taiwan, it was still a very deeply touching analysis of me (i know you're a reader) and it felt like i mattered. Sigh sorry taiwan people. I really love you and if I could I would change the past.
I'll keep it forever.
Today was very very emo. Crush was everywhere and, ask Junwei and Mel Ho, I was darn emo even when campagning. Thank god I had fun with my jazz band (i will advertise soon enough; i'm speaking spanish onstage!), and had Muthu, Lydia, Shu and Sabby to laugh my ass off with. I couldn't stop laughing until 50 m away from the bus-stop I alighted at. So yes, I was laughing to myself. Thanks guys. It was damn funny all the scenarios. We should make a movie.
Well, now, back to me and the computer and thinking about Crush. It'll kill me one day, and I wish I let it go, but I can't. Sigh.
I'm never shy, but this is different. I can't explain the way I'm feeling tonight... I'm losing control of my heart. From "I Can't Read You" by Daniel Bedingfield, one of the songs from last post.
Sigh. Wish me luck with the weekend. Tomorrow got Council filming, then Othello GM, then yay HX, Andrea, Serene crazy relax day. Whoo.
the return of the emokidd.
today really was an emo day for me. the whole day i couldn't concentrate in class because i was thinking about my crush. now i don't even know what to do. my heart constricts when I think of YOU, crush.
You know today because of that I went and prepared a songlist to sing in the shower? Here they are:
1. Emma Roberts - Mexican Wrestler "You will never love me, and this I can't forgive"
2. Michael Buble - You Don't Know Me "No you don't know the one, who dreams of you at night"
3. Michael Buble - Kissing a Fool "You are far, I'm never gonna be your star"
4. Elliott Yamin - Somebody to Love "Can anybody find me somebody to love?"
5. Rent Musical - I'll Cover You (Reprise) "Live in my house; I'll be your shelter."
6. Daniel Bedingfield - I Can't Read You "I can't read you; I wish I knew what's going through your mind"
Yea... As you can imagine it was a long and noisy shower. Very sad, even though in the bid to try and hit notes I was reminded of 1200 in my nick. Haizz jazz concert is coming up but I'm not prepared!
Crush... Stop playing games with me. Or maybe I just can't accept the fact that you may never like me. Siann. That's very sad cuz i really like you.
Hongxiu was talking to me about how busy-ness has kept him from thinking about relationship stuff and the emo-shit. I think that's a good idea. Grace? I'm ready for the lessons le.
Haizz daoing hw again. Haha. So slack la I.
Oh and before I forget, vote for Clinically Proven! Not just me, also Jun Wei, Shuli, Melho. If you know them vote them because you know how cool/talented/fun/happening they are right? And if you don't, approach me for a medicine pack for their biodata. But in any case, here's a brief summary of who they are: THEY MOTHERFONGING ROCK!!! They're really the best group ever. And I'm not one with low expectations of people in the social politics game. They really are every bit deserving of a place in council. So if you read this (how many are there man) please vote for them.
Blogging is fun. Night.
en etudiant.
haha trying to blog in class shit quite exciting. i have no idea what mr. lee tat leong is talking abojut and like half the class is bloody stoning it's quite funny. everyone is eharing but not listening... And i'm juust asking jon yee for answers pretending to agree with him. lol.
i'm blogging because the others ask me to blog. hopefully i'll continue to blog. lol Grace is helping me block so i can blog. lol. i hope i don't get caught. Everyone is doing something else!! Heidi sleeping, teach lauching, huimin stringing....
wah grace very hard working.
well today i've got so much to complete. very very packed. one after another. how?
and shucks i'm crushing someone again. cannot.
yay hongxiu crazy day this sat. So fun. haha.
And about Council campaigning... You see, I don't know whether i should fret about the rest of my group. I mean in my honest opinion Jun Wei and Shu are relatively unknown compared to me and mel... So i'm really all for not getting in for them to get in. Clinically Proven is chao cool; i think they should get in. Instead of me. But I'll try hard anyway.
Well, xinyi was watching. So weird. Now grace is watching. Even weirder. Lol. I think blogging in school is fun.
Sorry mortals and other angel!
en etudiant.
haha trying to blog in class shit quite exciting. i have no idea what mr. lee tat leong is talking abojut and like half the class is bloody stoning it's quite funny. everyone is eharing but not listening... And i'm juust asking jon yee for answers pretending to agree with him. lol.
i'm blogging because the others ask me to blog. hopefully i'll continue to blog. lol Grace is helping me block so i can blog. lol. i hope i don't get caught. Everyone is doing something else!! Heidi sleeping, teach lauching, huimin stringing....
wah grace very hard working.
well today i've got so much to complete. very very packed. one after another. how?
and shucks i'm crushing someone again. cannot.
yay hongxiu crazy day this sat. So fun. haha.
And about Council campaigning
that was random.
ok just woke up. I'm filled with the zest to complete many of the things I have neglected. Even right now the list is being filled out in my mind: get a tan, do up blog, practise guitar, do tutorials....
Being topped up with alot alot alot of sleep does this for you.
(but... i don't like being awake. i'm not used to it.)
Well, like i've said many times before, I start a blog with the prognostication (whoo GP) that I would stop sometime after and/or start a new one later. Well let's hope that doesn't happen too soon.
Why will my ipod not work? Itunes isn't reading my ipod. Everyone pray hard for my ipod ok.
I got to get some songs. And Yu Yang's hair.
