french folie!
aiyoh, die la... it's 9.10, i have Mechanics of Structures at 10.25, and i have yet to study for my french... especially bad since this is one of my worst parts and i -can- actually study for this. die die die.
wish me luck, please.
french folie!
aiyoh, die la... it's 9.10, i have Mechanics of Structures at 10.25, and i have yet to study for my french... especially bad since this is one of my worst parts and i -can- actually study for this. die die die.
wish me luck, please.
old at sixteen.
hmm. today we were having interviews for Exco positions for RP. shan't talk too much about the actual process, but i wanna say i felt like i was this really old person that was soon going to die. it finally hit me that i am going to leave RI! four years of tumultuous times here, and i'm sure the end would mark a dramatic step towards maturity... which is why i really want to come back from taiwan to enjoy my last moments with my classmates, before we enter the world of jc and girls... sigh. good luck all preceding batches.
and daniel is going to make the announcement regarding the placings for Dramafeste tomorrow morning. i hope my cast isn't there to be reminded what a flop this was, and thankfully i got out of remembering how lousy i was when i was in-charge. the confessions of a coward, but it's true, sorry.
working like i'm Andy Sachs in The Devil Wears Prada. got many stuff to do, and French essay prelim tomorrow which i have yet to study for. sigh. see ya.
omg!
Go to watch this video, they've said that it is kind of gory, but personally i think it's fine, but you please use your discretion:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q9F04dcB4DA
It's really sad. Now i really have to think twice about eating at KFC, although i doubt Singapore's chicken farm is like that.
the organization is at www.kentuckyfriedcruelty.com.
a revisit.
hey... haven't blogged lately because.... well, i didn't. anyway, maybe now i feel like blogging because i was over at Yong Hao's today, and i sort of felt more alone than i would normally feel in my room because of the comparison with an hour ago. oh well, now even shane is going at it more than i do. but, even so, blogging naked is a new experience for me.
and a new experience for you as well to hear about someone blogging naked.
in any case. if you refer to shane's blog, on friday we watched North Country by recommendation from YH. that was my first intutitive critical attack at a film, and Niki(sp?) Caro's direction was really quite an eye-opener. before the classes, i wouldn't have caught the darkness befalling the car just after Charlize says "Yea, i know what I'm doing.", or the "Ear protection, ladies!" right after Charlize hears the miner say "cunts." Wow. But somewhere through the story it made me focus more on the storyline than the direction, because the storyline was rather interesting.
should i do a little review? i think i should, since it's worth watching. Josey Aimes, a single mother of two children, decides to work at a mine, where the male-to-female ratio is 30 to 1. There, she meets with tonnes of problems with the guys, mostly sexual harassment and unequal rights. She fights it, and the rest you can (or rather, should) pretty much guess for yourself. Well, i felt this movie is one of those movies that deserve a place in those award shows, but not exactly amazing, because of the drama-ness of it. as i discussed it with YH, we felt that the focus of the story shouldn't have been of the Mother-son relationship between Josey and Sammy, but rather about the predicament of the women in the workplace at that time, which this film is ultmately based on. while indeed, we can see that the director knows her stuff and inserts subtle innuendoes, i think it's more of the scriptwriter's skill that brought the necessary life into the story (isn't that always the case?). Nevertheless, we should applaud the movie for its attempt at greatness (i.e. to do a societal expose piece), and if you are a sexist you should watch this movie.
in comparison to The Devil Wears Prada that i watched yesterday, i could definitely pay attention to the latter as a whole. A girl goes to work at a famous magazine Runway, and turns from one of the amigos to a high-class snobby b^tch, after working there for a few months. I reeeeaaallly don't want to spoil the movie for you, but whatever you imagine to come next is probably right. TDWP had an interesting premise, actresses who made the piece work (ah!! Tracy Thoms!), but hardly anything beyond your run-of-the-mill feel-good movie. In fact, throughout the movie, i was constantly calling out for them to hit me with what they had to, like giving a second side to the villain, amongst others. (this seems to be a problem with North Country, according to many reviewers.) Let's look at the actresses then, since we don't have anything else to talk about. Anne Hathaway -- the only problem i have with her is WHY THE HELL DOES SHE LOOK LIKE A DUCK ON THE POSTER? omg. is it on purpose? anyway, she fit her role well. very pretty as well, even before the makeover. Meryl Streep -- ah, classic. but her character was too stereotyped. but, she brings her class of excellence into the picture anyway. Tracy Thoms! -- i don't know why i pick to talk about her, but i loved her in Rent, and i loved her in TDWP. my only regret is that she didn't get to play a role that was different from Rent; i sort of saw her twirling around in the same Rent circle, and she should break out and do more. she definitely can achieve more. and why didn't she sing?
ahh, haha, that was fun. reviewing movies. i should do that more often, and moreover with all the new movie bursting out of their seams at the cinemas. well, i have the series premiere of Vanished waiting for me in another window, before i have to get back to my tonnes of work. see ya.
musical galore!
haha watched 2 musicals one day after the other, High School Musical and Rent, the movie. haha it's interesting to go from nice fun cheesy teen movie to homosexuality, strippers, and (as Anthony Rapp sings) "mucho masturbation". haha... they were good, except i didn't like many songs of Rent except La Vie Boheme and the 525600 song. haha.
man, i wanna do a musical. it's so nice to listen to musical music, like all those songs from Buffy 'Once more, with Feeling' or Moulin or whatever. i'm spam downloading all the songs from rent and HSM and also Step Up (i want to prep myself for the movie!).
speaking about Step Up and dance, i wanna join RJ dance, but that means i have to be good enough to audition and get through. which means i need to start learning some shit NOW. sigh.
movies!
wow, was having a field day looking at trailers and everything. soo many movies i have to see! i started with saw 3, although the trailer couldn't have been more vague. ok upcoming releases:
- Frost-Bite
- Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Beginning
- Saw 3
- (perhaps) Ghost Game
- Material Girls
- Snakes on a Plane
- Step-up (en train de telecharger)
and to catch up:
- Hostel
- Texas Chainsaw Massacre
- Scary Movie 4
- Final Destination 1
- The Break-up
- Hard Candy
and many more. yonghao please note.
with great respect to mathilda.
i am positively devastated by the results of this week's Singapore Idol. the intelligent viewers of singapore have voted out one of the best singers of the competition. and i'm still trying to get over it. seriously, what is the point in having Singapore Idol? why not create an Are You Hot, or another lame competition that judges NOT on merit? as much as i feel that the Singapore Idol producers have created a show that is very contrived, i still applaud them for their recognition that this IS a singing competition. but still, despite their desperate efforts, we still have people with thick skulls lying around, who refuse to see that. take lionel for example (lionel no hard feelings, it is just this that i feel very, very angry with you about, it's nothing we both don't know we are at odds at), he is so pleased with Mathilda's exit. please, if the education and cultural upbringing of singapore creates people who judge others by their looks, then i think Singapore, creating the best talents is still shit. these are the people who cannot see beyond looks and to whom the attempts at sense-inculcation by the SI people are in vain. thank god Hady has a good voice, or else he would be another victim of my attack.
it's sad to see that really, singapore is such a cold, cold place. i don't see how we deserve ANY cultural respect at all, when all we do is either follow after the westerners or create really stupid cultures. look at quality of shows on tv, and look at the things we ask the people who grace our petit nation to perform or exhibit. "So, asian girls?" "Do you have any problem with girls?" what the FUCK?! can singapore grow up? please?
i hate singapore because of that. i love singapore for all that it has done for me, but if you cannot fail to realise this problem, then... my, it makes one want to cry. can singapore have more substance than this?
whee vive la france!
haha today was uber-slack like i said ytd. just go for assembly (which we had a talk on our RJC subjects... hmm i got to go make those choices soon.) and then french. not sure why i just got very irritable from school to third lang, but French today was fun!
we had a debate! would i ever have imagined being able to field a debate (albeit poorly)? no. and the topic was kind of interesting, except for when i finally the concluder of everything, i kind of stuttered my words away, and forgot what i wanted to say, so i just sort of crapped it out. haha. sigh. i want to practise my french.
oh and he spoke spanish today in class! which is cool, cuz i caught one or two words. i'm going to email him later to ask him how to improve my speaking.
i decided to push my workout for saturday. let my arms heal. haha.
a pressing ANNOUNCEMENT. and malice.
this is going out to all of you who think joakim ought to stay on for his pretty looks: WAKE UP. seriously! i mean, he cannot sing, and he should leave now since he is the poorest performer. sigh, i mean, like as is already a cliche, this -is- a singing competition. save your votes for hady or someone else. anyone else. please.
and also, i was uninstalling some software (my D: drive seems to have a problem of always becoming out of space :( ) when i realised something -- there often are those programs that, after you uninstall, tell you to restart your computer. i personally never heed their advice and nothing happens to my comp. so it makes me think, is it a final act of malice, a desperate thrashing of limbs at the end of its existence? seems to me very much so.
anw i'm still aching. which is nice. oh wait, i think i didn't tell you i worked out yesterday. i hope this home gym thing works. and my diet seems good to me, because i just keep downing protein. more and more. even one whole drumstick and an egg doesn't seem like enough protein for me anymore. haha. this is fun. do you know those Model 1 models have stats that will make you and me (unless you are not someone i know) jealous like some crap? chest 95cm<, waist80cm< (of abs, mind you), collar 30cm<, height 183cm<... that could in some weird way be motivation for my workout. i'm only 173 i think. sigh.
and today i had this little initiative. to say hi to all the people i know and i see in school. and it was fun, and i kind of felt relieved when boyi came along because he readily waves to you, so it was easy for me to initiate the goodwill for once.
tomorrow slack! haha. just go school for assembly and then french. then
maybe, just maybe, i will do my work out for thursday. if not, i push to fri or sat. and my french is sucking, luckily shane is practising with me haha.
crazy, in a safe world.
lol, sorry corrinne and jon.
anw, today, was kind of nuts. it kinda meant wasted effort. two presentations squeezed in one day, and for all the work i had put it in i say about a quarter of all of it paid off. the ppt for Art and Porn did not get a chance to show it's face much. and the RE presentation had about 10 slides that were rushed through, due to lack of time. sad.
but now on a work-doing mood. although i wanna try my hand at guitar again, as inspired by Shane. lol.
and also, i kinda made some unpleasant discoveries in my prowl across the plane of the internet... i think god is trying to tell me something. sigh. i think i get it....
sorry.
(no madonna trans-language lyrics.)
anw, i want to say sorry to these people:
1. My RE group,
2. My Philo Art & Morality group,
3. and anyone i've pissed off with my lack of commitment.
I will try my best to do everything well. My promise goes out to:
1. My Chem PT group,
2. My Physics PT group.
Sorry again. I'll try my best.
the creepy feeling of slackness.
ahh! i'm returning back to my old procrastinating ways. i have quite some work to complete today:
1. RE
2. Philo Presentation
3. Geog CDs (6 of 'em!)
4. Math Portfolio
5. English Reflections
sigh. better get down to work.
anger and unwillingness and change.
hmm. so many things happening lately, but i haven't been blogging. i was thinking, maybe because it was slack? no. maybe because i had stuff like my puzzle (which i completed thank you) and Rihanna's Unfaithul to practise? no. maybe because the feelings i feel now aren't as intense as before, so i didn't really need an outlet. but hi. i'm here now.
hmm... tomorrow i'm going jogging with my bro again, as part of my latest plans called "My Fitness Regiment". my goals are kinda crazy, like adding at least 1 cm to many parts of my body (now now keep your head clean) and being alot stronger. however, i could not fulfil one of my commitments, which is rock climbing, cuz xian jie didn't wanna come. are there anymore people who are willing to join me in my latest sport venture? i'm also going to plunge into swimming (pun intended) and also jogging of course, all aside from my twice-per-week workout. whee. i have oliver hanging about giving me support so yeah.
my bro seems reluctant to come. sigh. it's not going to be fun is it.
and i'm trying to play Rihanna's Unfaithful, as i said. it's nice to make music for myself. it's cool. and then there's guitar to learn, and spanish to learn. my my my.
click was good. loved the music mostly. company was fun.
gonna go now. bye.
puzzles = late sleep.
oh dear. it's 3 50 am, and i just decided to wrap up the work on my jigsaw for today. it's looking good, and i just kept going and going -- if not the really crappy Ellen Degeneres show i would have just kept on.
later we're going to have NDP celebrations, where we are supposed to make a fashion t-shirt for parade. and after which i will go with aaron and shane to visit Mrs. Tham who unfortunately is leaving, and after which we will watch Lake House. And after which we would be going over to Aaron's for stayover! whee. there are some pieces of work that we are to hand up to Mr. Tan today but i think i'm just going to heck.
and i watched apprentice again, and it inspires to be more fastidious and work-ey. But what am i doing? I'm spending hours working on puzzles. sigh. when oh when am i going to start my workouts?
btw we got third in inter-class soccer. oh man...
in spite of school.
having my honey stars + peanut butter bread supper. just returned home from Homesick, a film by Alfian Sa'at (i only realised today i haven't seen him in person) and was pretty good. Koped alot of brochures also, for future play-watching plans.
Finished our SS video. kind of nice, i think, very fun and interesting. but the best part of the video is the bloopers, which must be seen!
so... slacking. wanna plan for workouts tonight. see ya.
after the Dead Man Walking.
just finished watching Dead Man Walking, followed by the completion of about 20-30 pieces of my puzzle with silly thai horror movie playing. but i had some thoughts (random, not about the movie totally):
- I was told the best way to treat people you hate is to love them, as hard as it is to do. but it would work if I do it right, so i might try it.
- I want to write an essay on death penalty.
- Go to
https://implicit.harvard.edu/to see how much you understand yourself. it's not as exciting as finding out new frontiers about yourself as described by Malcolm Gladwell in
Blink!, but it's cool enough.
an uninteresting today, but a meaningul yesterday.
(^ wow my longest entry title yet.)
anw, today was kind of mundane. the usual stuff, running here and there (although having lunch at Samy's with Jun Wei, Rahul, Anish, Prem and Pavneet was fun and insightful). but what was interesting was yesterday. i'm gonna blog as though it is yesterday, an entry i call "demarcations/marks.":
today marked the end of many things. of course, as we all know, it marks the end of my term 3 as we knew it. with the coming DMPs, this means that i can concentrate on other things I want to do. and also, i realise that when I'm slack i get very slack, and even things that i'm supposed to do and can easily do i don't do. sigh. this means there is a mark of beginning.
it also marks the end of 4J's nonsense with me and matthew chua, but not without a final cat-call extravaganza to finish it off. i will be told tomorrow by XJ that i am making too much of a fuss about this (since this is Friday)... But never mind. whatever i did wrong, it's over, and it won't return to haunt me.
it marks the day the tension between me and victor finally exploded. i don't remember when it started, but it had been building up bit-by-bit for so long, it was just waiting for the slightest spark to ignite itself. i think we both knew it subconsciously. i'm not sure if he's going to be seeing this, but, i just don't like it.
which brings me to my next mark, the mark of self-mental discovery. i am a logical person, therefore i hate people. i hate them cuz they are illogical and hard to handle, because they don't make sense. how do you deal with people you hate or are angry with (like in my case, victor)? God's will? Autism? etc... I discussed all these topics with my sister at the newly-intiated idea of Macdonald's called Mac Tonight, which means they open 24h on Fridays, Sats, and eve of public hols. it was really nice, and although i wished they could have made the place jazzier with lower lights and jazz music, i would kill the person who decides to cancel this idea in the future, cuz i love it.
there, yesterday once more. now i'm listening to my Big Band Collection which I thought was bad, but now realized it's actually very good. got quite some things to plan, but those shall wait, while i fulfil my promise to yonghao to watch DMW. he also asked me to read The Accidental, but i have to seek approval from my book club people. ok see ya.
workaholicism 3.
yet
another day at AMK, and thankfully, my last for at least a week. tomorrow is judgement day: Bio and HMT! So I went down to make sure i got everything down.
hmm. two things i wanted to blog about. plus other random shit. like how i only realised that i have a blister that is hurting like hell, but never stopped to take a look at it.
anw, today while at MOELC taking footage for our project, we had a small discussions, and talking about how people will die an early death and how people have changed. in our discussion, i think we came up with the following:
- Yu Jun, more Victor-ish
- Victor, from Master to Slave (i know he's going to pester me to find out what this means lol)
- Xian Jie, more tame and good-boy
- Ye Wei, more crazy
btw everyone who was in the discussion tells NO ONE about who said what, ok? anyway i thought it was pretty insightful. and really, i feel that alot of people in different schools are nice people. haha.
second thing is about blogging. i don't know, it's as though everytime I come home and I will think of what to blog about in the shower, while singing. Something I wanted to say. I reeeeaaallly wish i could write posts like ZY's. oh dear.
and my haircut isn't very nice now... oh dear. my mum was in such a hurry.
quick gossip.
it's 6.09 now, and I fell asleep instead of studying chinese. but it doesn't matter, really (the perks of studying a few days in advance).
anyway i just want to put up a random gossip. no names. yesterday, when we were at the cross-country race, we were sitting around waiting for prizes to be given out, and XX said something about YY, something to the effect of "eh cheer for him la, our class". it may seem normal, but then again, there were other people who were from the same class as both XX and YY, but XX only seemed interested in cheering for YY. hmm.
i really, really hope XX doesn't kill me for this.
rushingism (in reverse chronology).
another day at AMK library, except my hours there seem to get shorter and shorter each day. today i arrived there at 7 30, so I all the time I was studying I was eating.
before that, I had a great talk with Samuel. i tried to apply some of the knowledge I learnt from Blink (the power of thinking without thinking), and had him attempt to connect with his sub-conscious. and even if you
are thinking, you'll feel that Sam is like the total embodiment of everything good. He says stuff like "i rather be me, than someone is super-rich, super-handsome, super-everything but doesn't love himself" or "i have a natural predisposition towards 'love' for most people". wow. he (and I) didn't want to have me connect with my sub-conscious, cuz as he said "i have too many dark secrets". haha. and I kind of thin-sliced myself and found out something that I never realised.
liang jie cologne is nice. what brand is it? where can I get it?
cross-country, buckley is last again, in spite of getting high placements in 2/4 categories. sigh I feel sorry for Mrs. Ong and all related buckley comm people. it's such a vicious cycle, we get last, and the people lose morale, and the people believe we will get last all the time, and we don't perform, and we get last, so on and so forth. it's quite difficult to handle.
(the above was in reverse chronological order. that was fun.)
anw going to:
1. Finish mugging chinese.
2. Find MORE pictures for chi website
3. Send the file to Sam.
4. Revise Chem and complete diff assignment.
good night.
studying.
whee. another fruitful day at AMK library, except for the times when I was indulging in my ice-blended mocha, roastery chicken leg and brownie topped with ice-cream. that was good.
whoever wants to join me should join me. around this period very little people visit this place, so seats are easy to find. and c'mon, it's me! how much fun can you really take?
and wonder why shane mentioned me in his personal message on MSN. anyway, i want to say 'welcome' to all who have thanked me for extending the hours at Dome for the PPP... it really wasn't that hard. and this week's assembly is CCA meeting, so in the midst of cleaning up, we'll be reminiscing and organizing new ones (stay tuned to find out!)
i think i'm pretty ready for my physics test tomorrow. it's nice to know that you have studied everything available to you for study. haha... but tomorrow got cross-country! i would love to run but not this week... not when everyone is bia-ing for the test.
ah well. hmm. jazz is really good. really, really good. it just... brings you to a whole new place. bye.
