troubles.
sigh i'm so bored. again it's back to clockwatching.
anyway cca verification is tomorrow. what should i do? i really feel that CCA is overrated. i mean CCA itself is important but what i don't like is the system. isn't it supposed to let us do what WE choose? how come it becomes so difficult to go from one choice to another. it's so not fun. for me i just feel i know what i'm doing, i'm doing my best at it and i'm happy with it. if i get few points because of that, i won't be too sad.
but i'm gonna ask Darren what he did.
moodsianzed
musicjason mraz, 0% Iinterest
you and i.
you know how much i miss you? it's coming back again. the nights where sleep becomes anticipated, because i see you in my dreams. just snuggling alone in my bed, with jazz playing, thinking about beautiful you... it's pure bliss.
will you know who i am? i want to know. god damn it please just let me know! you're the brave one; i'm too much a coward to confront you. i don't want to lose the little hope that i cling on to.
it's too much. your glances are killing me. i'll do anything for you to approach me and talk to me.
moodlovelost
musicmichael buble, you don't know me
a wish to stop clockwatching.
i hate clockwatching.
it's as though all our life time is there, whipping us to go but yet posing as an obstacle in our path. it sucks.
cue "Clockwatching" by Jason Mraz.sigh. gonna stop clockwatching and sleep now. see ya.
moodtired of the world
musicjasonmraz, clockwatching (duh)
sigh.
so boring. now doing RE and have to do Bio reflective.
so do not want to live now.
moodsianzed
musicthe vandals, come out fighting
catching up on work.
i think i blogged today? ah well after finishing my work to leave a plan, i thought i should blog again.
i've finished all the work i have to hand in all the way up till Wednesday, so I have the time to do my RE presentation (congress baby!) and my french essay (mais biensur). Should work out.
anyway, i want to sleep early tonight, but maybe after i review another book for english portfolio.
by the way, whatsername by Green Day rox my sox. i want to hear any band in Raffles Institution that plays that song.
ahhh. starts of motivations.
today i call it the start of motivations.
i've come to the point in my life where the past is dragging on the present, and the present is dragging on the present. All my past experiences come to life and life becomes a rut, with me simply squeezing between the gaps of the day.
it's time it stopped.
Oliver, my friend as mentioned before, gave me an excellent reading that is really useful for those who want need self-motivation. normally i wouldn't need this sort of thing, i was so motivated to do everything. but now, i'll have to suffice with this and i must say, it isn't working any less. once i get the green light i'll put it up.
meanwhile, i've started on my workout motivations. did a very refreshing routine about 10 minutes ago and the shower made it all great. wow. have to figure in the finances for a pull-up bar and the time to go jogging. i ignore the world who says i'll fail, because i won't. i'm pumped. as in psyched, not beefed. hahaha. anw, shall put up some (embarassing) measurements that might as a policy save me from certain idleness.
cabbage is waiting for me downstairs. see ya in a day.
moodpumped (as in psyched not... oh well you get it)
musicgavin degraw, chariot
PS: Right now i don't like the new DJ's on P10 and the existing good ones get all the wrong times (Jamie Yeo at 2? wrong....) But if you're looking for weird music and a program that is so bad it's good (to a certain extent), listen to Don and Drew. They're very very lame, but they have the makings of a good program. and weird music kinda rocks? that song by Third Base.
shivers.PSS: Please please please do watch Real World / Road Rules Challenge - Battle of the Sexes 2, 8pm on MTV. For those who are unable i am more than happy to invite you to watch it at my house. STEVEN AND FRANK AND ANGELA AND RUTHIE AND MARK AND GENESIS ALL ROCK!! coral, you kinda *censored for yh* and veteran alliance too. Shane, please do not corrupt Nick. Chris, all the best!
PSSS: Ok, that's all. See ya! (pumped)
a screwed fall from holiday.
after a day at Junyu's, i come back to realise that life is never
just holiday.
as usual.
i mean, it sucks to always expect life to be difficult when you come back from fun. is school all about that? i think that really just isn't right. now, it's even beginning to seep into the "fun" time. will fun just completely slip away? even oliver (my net friend) says i'm doing too much work.
right now i've got chinese to complete and bio and physics. i hope i can finish by monday. rehearsals tomorrow, i haven't called the people nor got the props. i apologize, Daniel. and to think i'm here awake at this hour!
with shane, suddenly what we call my "three-minutes" come back to haunt me. "three-minutes" are my sudden interests that last a short time, which isn't a good habit at all i know. they are: football freestyling, beatboxxing, drums, TV shows (too much to name). those are the ones i can remember. the latest ones are skateboarding, magic, street stunts, and alot more.
sigh. probably going to crash now. see ya.
moodsubconsciously tired
musicAvatar: The Last Airbender on Nickolodeon (i like the huge animal thing)
at shane's
here at shane's house. rather bored. today was hectic but rather fun too. just really tired now.
i apologise for this sad excuse of a post. i shall do a better job. i promise. seriously.
moodtired
musicthe "clack clack clack" of shane's living room fan
hyped.
ok it's so cool. i've got my apprentice mood again and it's just cool. i'm transformed into a rancicist.
been playing too much of Doom 3 and my guitar.
once i finish my Acad Paper i will be free. wish me luck.
moodapprentice
musicThe Apprentice Season 1 Finale
a foggy day, in lodon town
isn't it such a great day, with the rain and all? it made me feel so london-y. even the water canal resembled a steady river. it's great. i hope it rains more.
so... today i start work officially. i just came back from a meeting with Shane and Junyu at Macs. found that i have an Agatha Christie that i haven't read, and my sister has some really cool books too. ByDeBook at serene is also rather cool. looking at pictures of magic: the gathering revives some of my previous passion for the game and comics too. and i want to play Doom 3 all of a sudden. and i want to learn the guitar, zy please help!
well life is on the general purr-reety good right now. even though i have to do work. the day is just so beautiful! the rainwashed streets, wet cars, dripping vegetation... all things wet. it's just so down to earth and yet so heavenly. haha. thank you god.
moodrelaxed, london-y.
musicdaniel powter, jimmy get high
oh yeah.
i saw you again today. how are you, my beautiful friend? i love you. the way you looked at me.... sigh. stop it. stop playing with my heart.
timelessnessness.
aaahhhhh... finally the time is mine to spend. apologies for my not blogging, what with all the work and all...
have you ever felt like time didn't exist? i guess after a long time of being bound by the travails of life you get to contrast and see how the feeling of timelessness feels. i really didn't realise until i chatted with shane. i went back to see mrs tham, and from there on time wasn't anything. i just stayed there and chatted with everyone and then went to macs with yh, then came back to sleep, without looking at the time at all. and i slept for so long. it feels good. you should try it sometime.
today on RW/RRC - BOTS 2 (yes, second season!) Jacquese and Genesis were out. seriously? Genesis? did the noobies watch season 1? genesis was such a cool woman! sigh. anw it was funny, the girls robbed the guys of their massage chairs and the guys stole the girls' toilet seats. hahaha.
well, more timelessness for me would go down well.
moodslack.
musicmtv, newlyweds.